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Is Meditation the Key to Enlightenment?

How I created my Meditation Experience – Day 237

This is a continuation to:

Is Meditation the Key to Enlightenment?

 

Life Review - The Buddha ExperienceI forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to judge meditation within a negative emotional charge, not seeing, realizing and understanding that I’ve actually judged myself for the things that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to participate in my past, the things that I now see, realize and understand that had only benefited me within my own self interest delusional mind and through judging Meditation I distracted myself from facing the Practical correction because, so long as I judge, I still allowing my mind to be the directive principle instead of utilizing the Principle: Investigate all points and keep that which is best for all. Within that context, Breathing exercise as a self support tool can and should be utilized within a clear and directive starting point in assisting and supporting oneself to Bring oneself back to one’s own physical body, where one could, in breath, assess, check and investigate oneself until eventually, Breathing becomes one’s Directive Principle in any given moment.

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to associate and connect Breathing with Meditation and since I’ve Judged meditation as wrong, I sabotaged and compromised myself in not gifting myself the opportunity to assist and support myself in any given moment, to simply Breathe, Be here, within and as my human physical body in alignment to the Movement that Life is.

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to spiritualize Breathing and within that create an Experiences that would be aligned with the Spiritual Programs that I’ve created within and as myself. Within this, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to fear having Spiritual Experiences as it indicate that I accepted and allowed my mind to take over the moment. In this, I forgive myself that I’ve not accepted and allowed myself to realize that it is useless to try and suppress that which exists within and as me and rather, if a Spiritual experience emerge from within and as me, it is cool, because then, I’m able to assist and support myself to release myself from the entity that I’ve created within and as myself through going to the draw board to investigate what I’ve not seen and sorted out within and as myself and accordingly, take self responsibility and correct the point within and as myself.

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to define myself as inadequate when and as a Spiritual Experience emerge from within and as me, as if I have done something terribly wrong, not seeing, realizing and understanding that I should simply see it as it is, another window of opportunity to sort out that which was already existent within and as me. In this, I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that if I react to the Spiritual Program that I’ve inserted and program myself, I create another experience, another entity and thus, only prolong my process instead of Quantified my process in walking through each and every point that reveal itself here, stand in stability and in self trust that I have all that I require for, to assist and support me to step out of mind experience and step into the Physical reality as an Expression of myself.

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to NOT realize that I’ve judged the Spiritual Experience that I had created within and as myself, because I’ve defined myself as More than a spiritual person, utilizing the Knowledge and information that I have, to justify for myself, why I am MORE than another. Within this, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to want, need and desire to define myself as MORE than a spiritual person and within that suppress that which I’ve program myself to exists as, while I was myself a spiritual person, not seeing, realizing and understanding that the Program still exists within and as me, till I, as the directive principle, take the responsibility and release myself from the systems and programs that I’ve inserted and stored within and as myself with practical Self Forgiveness Process, in taking self responsibility for my own acceptance and allowances and change myself, immediately, within and as Breath. 

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself in practicing my Breathing application as a directive principle through which I expand my application to align with the movement that Life exists within and as till in every step, in every moment, I am Here, in and as Breath.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself to – when and as a Spiritual Experience is emerging from within and as me, to Stop, to Breathe and to see where I’m not aligned and clear within and as myself and in that, to investigate the source/core/origin of the Experience and accordingly, to take Self Responsibility and, correct my physical living application and change.

 

I commit myself to STOP the internal and external friction and conflict within and as myself, within the context of Spirituality as I now see, realize and understand that I have a process to walk, in writing, regarding my self definition and relationship with Spirituality as points opened up within this blog that I must take responsibility for and direct and accordingly correct within and as myself.

Is Meditation the Key to Enlightenment?

Recently I’ve been Practicing Breathing more consistently and specifically before and during setting my body to a rest. I found an interesting point – how my tendency or shall I say, my Automated tendency is to Spiritualize such moments. Let me explain.

 

I came to Desteni from a spiritual background where I used to meditate often to “Connect” with my guides and my spiritual Masters  through the belief that Meditation is the key to MY Enlightenment. Breathing and Meditating became a momentary escape from myself and the noises that went on in my mind. However, when I realized that none of my beliefs are in any way practical and aligned with the Principle of that which is best for all, I stopped meditating however, I haven’t sorted out yet my relationship with meditation as I’ve created it within and as myself through a process of Self Forgiveness.

 

Commonsensically, if one would look within and as oneself, one would see clearly that one’s starting point within meditation or any Spiritual practice for that matter is based on one’s self interest. For myself, my Self interest was to be prepared for 2012 Ascension day where I would transcend and go up to another dimension while the abuse, suffering, pain, war, etc. would continue on earth within the Self-Justification that these people need to learn their lesson and I shouldn’t concern myself with them as it is part of the greater plan.

 

What I haven’t realized about Meditation back then is that Meditation as a tool is not applicable since Life, Reality, is in Motion, it is always in a Movement and what worth does Meditation has if once one get up from one’s comfortable cushion, one steps back to one’s mind as backchat, internal conversations, reactions, emotions and feelings without even being aware of all of these.

 

What I also haven’t realized back then is that Mediation from a starting point of MY own Enlightenment while abuse, suffering, war, crime, starvation, etc. is still allowed in this world, isn’t acceptable within and as the principle of Equality and oneness and no matter how one would justify it for oneself, it is all that it is, a justification that one would use to not take responsibility for this world as a whole as one had protected one’s ass, sitting on a cushion with the sufficient funds that would allow one to take a momentary break from this reality and sit to meditate.

 

The last point I haven’t realized back then was that if the Guides and the Spiritual Masters were so Enlighten then why didn’t they come with a clear, direct and applicable solution for humanity as a whole? Why their messages are always within the same context, to elevate one’s Ego through utilizing good and positive words while the world is nothing but Positive?

 

Ok, so recently, and specifically after listening to the Atlanteans interviews:

The Atlanteans Guide to Physical Intimacy (Part 1) – Part 59

The Atlanteans Guide to Physical Intimacy (Part 2) – Part 60

I have started to be more diligent and specific before I set myself to sleep where I focus on Breathing, on my awareness to my physical body, clearing myself from the past day through looking at all the points that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to participate with as reactions, back chats, internal conversations, emotions and feelings, in separation of me. And accordingly, aligning myself, apply Self Forgiveness and give myself correction/instructions in how I would assist and support myself to correct my living application from Mind Participation to Physical Consideration.

 

Unlike meditation, my starting point wasn’t to reach a certain point of Enlightenment, that would make me feel special and more than within and as myself. My starting point is very clear – I see, realize and understand that so long as I had accepted and allowed myself to participate throughout the day, within my mind, I accepted and allowed myself to accumulate and generate Energy that my mind would use to recharge the Mind systems that would functions in the background and decide for me who I am in every moment. And so, once that is done, my body can fully Rest.  (Here, I suggest to study the Quantum Mind – Self Awareness)

 

In the first night, I’ve noticed that I still accepting and allowing myself to spiritualize these moments of simply Breathing, being here, practicing and expanding my awareness as Experiences started to kicks in within and as myself like for instance, I felt that my head was on the pillow while the rest of the body is floating – obviously that is not so as I was here, physically, on the bed and nothing floated. So I stopped, I breathed, I didn’t accept and allow myself to follow this experience because I know that this experience is based on Energy, Energy is programmable and I was the one who programmed this Experience a few years back when practicing Meditation. Another example was when I set down on my bed, still breathing and I felt as if I’m stepping out of my body, just for a tiny moment. I then stopped, Breathe because I realized that I’m in my body, equal and one and that the feeling of stepping out of the body is an Experience that I’ve programmed within and as myself, within and as the Desire to be MORE than who I really am.

 

It is very easy to fall into such experiences because it feels nice, it feels like we are More than who we really are but the fact of the matter is, that we are not. All that it is, in an Energetic Experience that do not have any practical foundation in becoming an Effective Human beings in this world that would direct, move themselves within each and every breath, through and as ONE principle – what is best for all Lives.

 

So, in my next blog to come, I will walk the Self Forgiveness Process to assist and support myself to delete the Spiritual association/connection that I’ve assigned to Breathing so that I could Breathe, as WHO I am HERE, within and as THIS physical reality as I see, realize and understand that so long as I accept and allow myself to exists within and as Mind Systems that had absolute control over me, through the Energy that I generate within any thought, reaction, emotions, feelings, etc. I would not Stand within and as Absolute physical Equality and Oneness and unless that is done, I won’t see the Physical Reality Directly, within all the Particles that forms the Relationships that Life Consists of and Exists as and therefor, won’t be able to stand in absolute self trust and stability in directing every thing that require to manifest a world that is best for all, in practical equal and one manner.

Eckhart Tolle – Nirvana Is Already Here

Can Nirvana Stop World Hunger?
Life Review – The Buddha Experience
http://eqafe.com/p/life-review-the-buddha-experience
Life Review – When Breath is not your Own
http://eqafe.com/p/life-review-when-breath-is-not-your-own
Quantum Mind Self Awareness – STEP 1
http://eqafe.com/p/quantum-mind-self-awareness-step-1
At Desteni we expose reality as the brutality that it exist-as in order to exorcise the demons that reside within each one of us: our very own thoughts, feelings and emotions that keep us occupied in our minds while life and reality are being sucked dry the more we seek for our personal survival and happiness.
“I commit myself to CALL on Each to Face the EGO and WRITE YOURSELF to FREEDOM so that One MAY BE LIFE. Read the Blogs of those Walking the Journey to Life, and You WILL see How Much was taken for GRANTED.”- Bernard Poolman
http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/08/day-138-authority-and-true…
http://www.equalmoney.org for a dignified and common sensical Monetary System where Life is the only value that remains as real point of power that can only exist if given and received in Equality for ALL participants.
Educate yourself about Self-Forgiveness as the key to realize our point of Responsibility and Self-Correction in this world lived by and applied individually:
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For this, within us taking our lives through a process of self-support, we are becoming +1 to the support that this world requires in order to have a consistent and solid group of human beings that are willing to face the consequences of our past accumulation of self-abuse, and establish the necessary reforms to reconcile ourselves with the life that is holding ourselves here, as our physical body.
This is no sweet talk, this is an actual physical process that requires consistency, dilengce and dedication to become beings that are really worthy of living, beause we are worthing ourselves as life in order to actually live.
The Video Tolle Doesn’t Want YOU to See
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fbq1trGHlCA – WhiteGoldGlove – yes, that’s me.
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Spirituality – the Message – Day 41

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http://mayaprocess.blogspot.com/2012/05/spirituality-message-day-41.html

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to give value to the messages coming through beings and I haven’t considered and questioned why is it that the messages are never clear and direct as well as why the messages are not in the context of presenting a solution for the world problems but only focus on Self Interested message of Love and Light where the physical evidence shows quite clearly that there is no Light and Love for the Majority of this world because Love and Light has a direct relationship with Money which 3.3 Billion people in this world don’t have.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to blindly follow the channelled messages that came from the afterlife because the message was always something I enjoyed listening to as I was praised and validated as a magnificent special soul that I apparently am and though feeding of my Ego with energy, I refused to question and consider the validity of those messages in terms of the principle of Equality and Oneness in it’s absolute expression of the words, within the realization that it is not only me in this world, it is me as part of the relationships that created this world and that Equality and Oneness in practical application imply that ALL required to be cared for, all required to have a magnificent and dignified Life and not only me as a self interest ego personality that does nothing practical to bring about a world that is best for ALL.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to desire to channel some higher being because I defined channellers as special and divine but when I practice the skill to channel and nothing came through, I accessed frustration because apparently, I was not as divine as I would imagine myself to be and so, I started to force the messages even though I knew that it was my mind who is giving me the messages and there is nothing divine in my mind because in self honesty, if one look within one’s mind at the back chat and one’s secret mind, one will find very easily that the nature of one’s thought is mostly based on judgment, spitefulness, competition, jealousy and so on.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to trust my mind as the entity that I’m channelling with and I have never considered to cross reference the information, to develop critical thinking with regards to the authenticity of the message as well as investigate the starting point of the messages because if I would, I would immediately see in clarity that the messages are contained with Evilness as it only address that which people would like to hear to feed of their ego personality design and remain control and enslaved to their mind without ever being able to step out and literally stand up for that which is best for all.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to blindly follow those who claim to be psychics and chanellers because I’ve defined them as divine and even though I’ve seen their day to day application that consisted of and existed as reactions, self interest, manipulations and Greed, I’ve closed my eyes from those component because I didn’t want to challenge my belief because who will I be when I take the belief away? Nothing! And I didn’t want to be nothing because I didn’t understand what nothingness is in fact how only from nothingness, a creation that is best for all can be created.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to fear giving up the belief of having people with a direct connection to the after life because I have gave so much value to the after life beings, as if they are all knowing and powerful and I haven’t considered that if it was true, they would have done something to assist and support this world and wouldn’t accept this world to manifest as it is.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to give value to channelling instead of focusing on the Physical Reality and walk towards a solution that is best for all physical lives because I’ve defined myself as powerless in comparison to the afterlife without realizing that it is all in reverse and that the physical is the Power and the Key to change this world and I, as a physical human being can stand up and be a part of a physical movement of practically change myself and this world.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that there is no visible solution that is coming from the afterlife because if there was, the messages would be direct, clear and based on practical common sense; it would have been a practical assistance and support for human kind; it would have been a practical assistance and support for beings to realize who and what they have become from generation after generation of self interest programmed design; it would have been a common sense approach with a practical application so that we could finally realize who we are as the mind and transform ourselves to a physical beings that walk in every moment according to a basic principle of Equality and Oneness as What is best for all.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to spend a huge amount of money for receiving different kind messages from the after life with regards to my Life as well as my past lives and I haven’t seen that if such messages were of any kind of a real and substantial support, the being who delivers the message would have done what ever it takes to make sure that everyone has a free access to the message and not only those with Money and would have come up with a solution such as Equal Money System within the starting point that once the Equal Money System will be in place, all beings on earth will have access to a process of realignment of who they are as their mind to who they are as a physical human being.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the relationship between Money and Channelled messages and that the only way those channels can exists is if someone would pay for it and I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that to sustain the returning paying clients that comes to receive more messages from the after life, the channeller must give them a positive and good message to make sure they will come back to feed their Ego with Energy.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that I’m being occupied within my mind with multiple kind and versions of messages that I received from the after life and within that very preoccupation, I’m allowing myself to remain enslaved and control to my mind as thoughts, emotions, feelings and reactions and I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to give value to those messages as knowledge and information to feed up my curiosity and I haven’t considered that Knowledge and information is useless if it doesn’t follow with a practical application for a real self change because if knowledge and information would be of any value in this world, the world would have been already changed.

I forgive myself that I’ve NEVER accepted and allowed myself to inquire and question the being that comes through to give a message through a channeller, why is it that their message is in no way a message of Equality and Oneness so that the being can help me understand why people are suffering in a world of plenty and so, I would be able to practically do something to change this world and the experience of being in this world that are daily suffering.

I commit myself to show the relationship between Money and Spirituality and to prove that the only way spirituality can exists is through having people paying for their beliefs.

I commit myself to educate and show that spirituality is just another religion that like all other religion, is based on Money, Control and thus require extensive brainwashing to sustain itself.

I commit myself to show that if there was any truth to the channelled messages, they would have been direct, clear and with a practical solution in terms of how to assist and support oneself and this world as a whole, to bring about a world that is physically best for all.

I commit myself to develop a critical thinking educational programs so that people can stop blindly follow words that are being spoken by those who deliberately manipulate the words so that everyone could develop inner self trust trough common sense approach within the principle of what is best for all after they have done proper research, investigation and walked practical self application and so, become an effective individual human being that express, direct and move oneself within a breath by breath physical and living application.

I commit myself to show that there is nothing divine in our mind and that the mind is in fact Evil manifestation that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to exists within and as and so, to show that the manifested world is a direct reflection to our Evil mind because we were the ones who have blindly created this world through our acceptance and allowance without never standing up for real and take the responsibility, as Life, to bring about a world that is worthwhile and worth living.

Spirituality – The Bigger Plan – Day 40

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http://mayaprocess.blogspot.com/2012/05/spirituality-bigger-plan-day-40.html

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself as a light worker to believe and hope for a better future without me having to do anything about it but sitting on my ass, meditate and pray for Love and Light, despite of the physical evidence that even though the number of light worker increase over the years, the atrocities is worsening.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself as a light worker to question the relationship between the increasing amount of light worker participants and the elevation of the world catastrophes and within that, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to justify and validate the world worsening condition with the statement: “it is part of a bigger plan” and within that, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see that the only way I’m able to speak such a statement is because I have money to support me and my life and I’m not starving to death like the majority of this world.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself as a light worker to see that by sitting on my ass and meditate within the belief that I’m doing something good in this world through raising the positive energies, I’m feeding my Ego personality through defining myself as a good and positive person but I have refused to see that by that very accepted and allowed behaviour, I’m in fact evil in my nature because I accept the belief of: “the world atrocity is part of a bigger plan, there is no need for me to actually stand up and practically/physically work towards a solution and change that is substantial in this world”

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself as a light worker to make excuses and justification for why people are being abused in this world through stating that: ” it’s their lesson to learn, they have chosen this life, they are paying for their past lives sins, it’s part of the bigger plan, I was also going through this lesson in my past lives” and within that, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to spite those who are suffering in this world because I believed they had to experience the absolute suffer in this physical world as part of their ascension process and I have never questioned, cross referenced and truly investigate the belief because I didn’t really care for them as long as my life is protected and safe.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to walk the living expression of the words “Equality and Oneness” but rather, used and misused those words to higher up the good and positive energy within me in separation of me as a physical being because if I would have lived the physical expression of the words: “Equality and Oneness” I would do what ever is necessarily to be done so that All as One as Equals will have a dignified life on Earth, that the earth resources would distribute Equally, that no one will ever have to survive again, that everyone will have equal access to re-educate and apply themselves and practically change their very beingness, in every breath according to that which is best for all.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself as a light worker, to believe that there is a “bigger plan” for the atrocities of this world without me ever questioning the nature of the “bigger plan” and see in self honesty that the “bigger plan” is in fact an Evil plan – a plan that was designed to keep people enslaved to their mind as within, and to Money as without so that only a select few could experience a life of abundance.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that spirituality is based on knowledge and information that was misinterpreted and manipulated so that beings could remain enslaved to their mind, as energy and within that, wouldn’t stand up for a practical and substantial solution that is physically best for all LIFE.

I commit myself to show, expose and reveal the Evil ‘bigger plan’ that was designed to control and enslave beings in this world so that beings could wake up from their delusional self interest dream/perception of Life and practically stand up and do something in this world that is substantial and best for all.

I commit myself to show in common sense why and how spirituality has become the most evil religion in this world as it is based on Self interest experiences that can only exists within and as the mind and as nothing to do with the physical reality.

I commit myself to expose the various aspects of Spirituality that I’ve participated with as a light worker and to share common sense of how I’ve seen for myself that Spirituality is in no way the solution that will practically and physically bring about heaven on earth.

Please read – Spirituality Under the Microscope – Volume 1 as well as Listen to the following interviews:

1. Spirituality – Astral Projections in Detail – http://eqafe.com/p/spirituality-astral-projections-in-detail

2. Spirituality – Out of Body Experiences – http://eqafe.com/p/spirituality-out-of-body-experiences

3. Spirituality and Rebirth – http://eqafe.com/p/spirituality-and-rebirth (F*r**e*e Download)

Also suggest to read – Day 38: Rebirthing as Life