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How I created my Meditation Experience – Day 237

This is a continuation to:

Is Meditation the Key to Enlightenment?


Life Review - The Buddha ExperienceI forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to judge meditation within a negative emotional charge, not seeing, realizing and understanding that I’ve actually judged myself for the things that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to participate in my past, the things that I now see, realize and understand that had only benefited me within my own self interest delusional mind and through judging Meditation I distracted myself from facing the Practical correction because, so long as I judge, I still allowing my mind to be the directive principle instead of utilizing the Principle: Investigate all points and keep that which is best for all. Within that context, Breathing exercise as a self support tool can and should be utilized within a clear and directive starting point in assisting and supporting oneself to Bring oneself back to one’s own physical body, where one could, in breath, assess, check and investigate oneself until eventually, Breathing becomes one’s Directive Principle in any given moment.


I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to associate and connect Breathing with Meditation and since I’ve Judged meditation as wrong, I sabotaged and compromised myself in not gifting myself the opportunity to assist and support myself in any given moment, to simply Breathe, Be here, within and as my human physical body in alignment to the Movement that Life is.


I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to spiritualize Breathing and within that create an Experiences that would be aligned with the Spiritual Programs that I’ve created within and as myself. Within this, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to fear having Spiritual Experiences as it indicate that I accepted and allowed my mind to take over the moment. In this, I forgive myself that I’ve not accepted and allowed myself to realize that it is useless to try and suppress that which exists within and as me and rather, if a Spiritual experience emerge from within and as me, it is cool, because then, I’m able to assist and support myself to release myself from the entity that I’ve created within and as myself through going to the draw board to investigate what I’ve not seen and sorted out within and as myself and accordingly, take self responsibility and correct the point within and as myself.


I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to define myself as inadequate when and as a Spiritual Experience emerge from within and as me, as if I have done something terribly wrong, not seeing, realizing and understanding that I should simply see it as it is, another window of opportunity to sort out that which was already existent within and as me. In this, I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that if I react to the Spiritual Program that I’ve inserted and program myself, I create another experience, another entity and thus, only prolong my process instead of Quantified my process in walking through each and every point that reveal itself here, stand in stability and in self trust that I have all that I require for, to assist and support me to step out of mind experience and step into the Physical reality as an Expression of myself.


I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to NOT realize that I’ve judged the Spiritual Experience that I had created within and as myself, because I’ve defined myself as More than a spiritual person, utilizing the Knowledge and information that I have, to justify for myself, why I am MORE than another. Within this, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to want, need and desire to define myself as MORE than a spiritual person and within that suppress that which I’ve program myself to exists as, while I was myself a spiritual person, not seeing, realizing and understanding that the Program still exists within and as me, till I, as the directive principle, take the responsibility and release myself from the systems and programs that I’ve inserted and stored within and as myself with practical Self Forgiveness Process, in taking self responsibility for my own acceptance and allowances and change myself, immediately, within and as Breath. 


I commit myself to assist and support myself in practicing my Breathing application as a directive principle through which I expand my application to align with the movement that Life exists within and as till in every step, in every moment, I am Here, in and as Breath.


I commit myself to assist and support myself to – when and as a Spiritual Experience is emerging from within and as me, to Stop, to Breathe and to see where I’m not aligned and clear within and as myself and in that, to investigate the source/core/origin of the Experience and accordingly, to take Self Responsibility and, correct my physical living application and change.


I commit myself to STOP the internal and external friction and conflict within and as myself, within the context of Spirituality as I now see, realize and understand that I have a process to walk, in writing, regarding my self definition and relationship with Spirituality as points opened up within this blog that I must take responsibility for and direct and accordingly correct within and as myself.

Is Meditation the Key to Enlightenment?

Recently I’ve been Practicing Breathing more consistently and specifically before and during setting my body to a rest. I found an interesting point – how my tendency or shall I say, my Automated tendency is to Spiritualize such moments. Let me explain.


I came to Desteni from a spiritual background where I used to meditate often to “Connect” with my guides and my spiritual Masters  through the belief that Meditation is the key to MY Enlightenment. Breathing and Meditating became a momentary escape from myself and the noises that went on in my mind. However, when I realized that none of my beliefs are in any way practical and aligned with the Principle of that which is best for all, I stopped meditating however, I haven’t sorted out yet my relationship with meditation as I’ve created it within and as myself through a process of Self Forgiveness.


Commonsensically, if one would look within and as oneself, one would see clearly that one’s starting point within meditation or any Spiritual practice for that matter is based on one’s self interest. For myself, my Self interest was to be prepared for 2012 Ascension day where I would transcend and go up to another dimension while the abuse, suffering, pain, war, etc. would continue on earth within the Self-Justification that these people need to learn their lesson and I shouldn’t concern myself with them as it is part of the greater plan.


What I haven’t realized about Meditation back then is that Meditation as a tool is not applicable since Life, Reality, is in Motion, it is always in a Movement and what worth does Meditation has if once one get up from one’s comfortable cushion, one steps back to one’s mind as backchat, internal conversations, reactions, emotions and feelings without even being aware of all of these.


What I also haven’t realized back then is that Mediation from a starting point of MY own Enlightenment while abuse, suffering, war, crime, starvation, etc. is still allowed in this world, isn’t acceptable within and as the principle of Equality and oneness and no matter how one would justify it for oneself, it is all that it is, a justification that one would use to not take responsibility for this world as a whole as one had protected one’s ass, sitting on a cushion with the sufficient funds that would allow one to take a momentary break from this reality and sit to meditate.


The last point I haven’t realized back then was that if the Guides and the Spiritual Masters were so Enlighten then why didn’t they come with a clear, direct and applicable solution for humanity as a whole? Why their messages are always within the same context, to elevate one’s Ego through utilizing good and positive words while the world is nothing but Positive?


Ok, so recently, and specifically after listening to the Atlanteans interviews:

The Atlanteans Guide to Physical Intimacy (Part 1) – Part 59

The Atlanteans Guide to Physical Intimacy (Part 2) – Part 60

I have started to be more diligent and specific before I set myself to sleep where I focus on Breathing, on my awareness to my physical body, clearing myself from the past day through looking at all the points that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to participate with as reactions, back chats, internal conversations, emotions and feelings, in separation of me. And accordingly, aligning myself, apply Self Forgiveness and give myself correction/instructions in how I would assist and support myself to correct my living application from Mind Participation to Physical Consideration.


Unlike meditation, my starting point wasn’t to reach a certain point of Enlightenment, that would make me feel special and more than within and as myself. My starting point is very clear – I see, realize and understand that so long as I had accepted and allowed myself to participate throughout the day, within my mind, I accepted and allowed myself to accumulate and generate Energy that my mind would use to recharge the Mind systems that would functions in the background and decide for me who I am in every moment. And so, once that is done, my body can fully Rest.  (Here, I suggest to study the Quantum Mind – Self Awareness)


In the first night, I’ve noticed that I still accepting and allowing myself to spiritualize these moments of simply Breathing, being here, practicing and expanding my awareness as Experiences started to kicks in within and as myself like for instance, I felt that my head was on the pillow while the rest of the body is floating – obviously that is not so as I was here, physically, on the bed and nothing floated. So I stopped, I breathed, I didn’t accept and allow myself to follow this experience because I know that this experience is based on Energy, Energy is programmable and I was the one who programmed this Experience a few years back when practicing Meditation. Another example was when I set down on my bed, still breathing and I felt as if I’m stepping out of my body, just for a tiny moment. I then stopped, Breathe because I realized that I’m in my body, equal and one and that the feeling of stepping out of the body is an Experience that I’ve programmed within and as myself, within and as the Desire to be MORE than who I really am.


It is very easy to fall into such experiences because it feels nice, it feels like we are More than who we really are but the fact of the matter is, that we are not. All that it is, in an Energetic Experience that do not have any practical foundation in becoming an Effective Human beings in this world that would direct, move themselves within each and every breath, through and as ONE principle – what is best for all Lives.


So, in my next blog to come, I will walk the Self Forgiveness Process to assist and support myself to delete the Spiritual association/connection that I’ve assigned to Breathing so that I could Breathe, as WHO I am HERE, within and as THIS physical reality as I see, realize and understand that so long as I accept and allow myself to exists within and as Mind Systems that had absolute control over me, through the Energy that I generate within any thought, reaction, emotions, feelings, etc. I would not Stand within and as Absolute physical Equality and Oneness and unless that is done, I won’t see the Physical Reality Directly, within all the Particles that forms the Relationships that Life Consists of and Exists as and therefor, won’t be able to stand in absolute self trust and stability in directing every thing that require to manifest a world that is best for all, in practical equal and one manner.

Lao Tzu in Modern Society

“To the mind that is still, the whole universe surrenders.”
– Lao Tzu

This practically implies — NO THOUGHT — NO MIND – The BODY of FLESH is the SELF — and life is born from the Physical as per the Gospel of Thomas

Bernard Poolman






“Knowing others is intelligence; knowing yourself is true wisdom. Mastering others is strength; mastering yourself is true power. If you realize that you have enough, you are truly rich.”

– Lao Tzu

Having enough is to have what is best for all equally from birth to death. To be rich while others are poor by implication is evidence that one do not know yourself and have not mastered yourself. Why should those that have no self mastery have any say in how life on earth is lived?

Bernard Poolman



“The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.”
― Lao Tzu

This is the journey of self correction and to find the truth of what man became as the mind –thus–the journey is step by step – breath by breath –till it is done — nothing more can be done but what is done in one breath at a time — to keep walking till self is in fact one and equal as life and the illusion of consciousness is no more. where to begin is irrelevant as the step right here, the breath right here is the beginning of the Journey To Life.

Bernard Poolman



“Those who know do not speak. Those who speak do not know.”
― Lao Tzu

This is vital to realize — as to the consequence to words as the living of self in all relationships, and when this is not what is best as life as equal, it is causing consequence that is unnecessary, but those that speak do not know, and thus they speak, lots of absolute crap, till life itself is the crap. Make sure each word is worth living –not for yourself alone, but for all being throughout all time, then one is enlightened and will not stop till all see the light of equality and oneness as that which is best for all life always. The arrogant fools say that Lao here indicate one should be silent — how foolish –you are a word on a living word and if you are no word, you will not exist. Live Words as Worthy in this World! Speak only when you know your words result in what is Best for all Life always!

Bernard Poolman



“When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.”
― Lao Tzu

This is the KEY to self Change –first to let go –to let the Ego go –to stop — to end what you are, then –you may be able to birth yourself as life –this is complete death of the illusionary self, the cultivated self the learned self , the society self, the family self, the money self, the sex self, all must go in every way –and life might be, if one is true to what is best for all life always as equal to life –as naturally life, as Life Normal – the Living Breath breathing the Living Word on the Living World as the Dust made fleSh as the Self, where no mind exist as separated self interest seeking imaginary foolfillment.

Bernard Poolman



“The truth is not always beautiful, nor beautiful words the truth.”
― Lao Tzu

This is IMPORTANT to Grasp — the world as it exist NOW is the TRUTH of the INNER HUMAN as ONE — UNLESS we change who we are to be reflected as THIS WORLD as what is Best for ALL LIFE, the MESS will continue!! — There is NO BETTER LIFE HEREAFTER as HERE creates HEREAFTER –As Below so ABOVE!! the TRUTH HURTS!

Bernard Poolman



“Time is a created thing. To say ‘I don’t have time,’ is like saying, ‘I don’t want to.”
― Lao Tzu

This should solve it for all those that do not find time to change the world to what is best for all life.

Bernard Poolman



“Be content with what you have;
rejoice in the way things are.
When you realize there is nothing lacking,
the whole world belongs to you.”
― Lao Tzu

This must be understood in the time frame it was written –many thousands of years ago – before the age of self interest where inequality is justified. This implies that the earth provide enough for all equally and thus lack only exist because we treat each other unequal and therefore no one has a place in the world unless they have money to buy it– at the moment life is being stolen by clever words that is not alive as it is not equal to life — to be the living word one must live the words in ways that support all life equally breath by breath

Bernard Poolman



“Care about what other people think and you will always be their prisoner.”
― Lao Tzu

Strange enough parents teach children to worry about what other people think and turn the children into prisoners of illusion

Bernard Poolman



“Stop thinking, and end your problems.”
― Lao Tzu

Yes –it has always been the solution, but nowadays thinking is glorified as CONsciousness and Energy and Feeling as part of a CONsumer system that devours all it can and refuse to give life to life

Bernard Poolman



“Do you have the patience to wait until your mud settles and the water is clear?”
― Lao Tzu

Self Forgiveness with Self Honesty is how one clear your water till it is crystal clear. Then even mudslinging will not be muddle your water and the self will reflect life clearly as what is best for all life always

Bernard Poolman

The Messiah is Coming to Save the World Or take our Money? – Day 225

If you haven’t yet watched – Derren Brown – Messiah – I really suggest you do so as this documentary will open up your minds in ways you couldn’t believe possible.


What I liked about this documentary is the Proven Evidence that one cannot deny, as Derren Brown takes us to a LIVE, groups meetings with Spiritual people, Religious people and all sorts of Believers and unbelievers and completely turns their lives up side down in a matter of minutes wherein, he would “convert” non-believers to believers and Believers to extensive believers through utilizing tricks, technics and skills.


Derren Brown himself claim that he had utilized the technics, tricks and “skills” that Gurus, Masters, Psychics etc. had written in their books, and that the fact of the matter is, that there is nothing magically or divine about what he does, to the contrarily.


What this documentary shows is how easily it is to alter and change one’s beliefs, how easily it is to trick one’s mind and how easily it is to install and program the human mind into and as a specific outcome without no awareness whatsoever of the humans themselves.


What was also fascinating was that he said to the cameras something like: “If someone would ask me how I am doing what I’m doing, I’ll tell them the truth, I’ll be honest with them and I’ll tell them that it is a trick; the problem is that no one is questioning me“.


Yes, this is indeed THE problem of human beings – no one is questioning one’s belief systems and simply accepting their beliefs as if it was the ultimate truth which they would follow ever so blindly without any physical cross referencing that they would form and walked for themselves.


So, Derren Brown could be the most appreciated Psychics in this world, the most Fabulous Dream Reader that exists, the Most powerful Channeller that was ever alive in this world and all of these attributes are confirmed with a rubber stamp by respectful beings in their filed of ‘expertise’. He could also make a fortune like all these people that validated the fake personality he presented to them but fortunately, Derren Brown is honest enough in seeing the deception, in seeing that any belief can be changed and altered in  a matter of seconds and that any belief cannot be real as all beliefs are programmable as he shown in his documentary.


It is a well known fact that the most “Respectable” gurus, master, spiritual teachers, psychics, churches  makes a fortune from our beliefs and if we change our beliefs, it would result in the reduce of their income. It is a well known fact that all of these above have something in common – Good and Positive messages that would lure one to pay more money to sustain and satisfied their desire for positivity in a world where there is nothing positive about it – we have daily wars, crime, starvation, diseases, terror, child abuse and so on.

It is also a known fact that nothing with these Positive messages had actually resulted with a significant change in bringing about a world that is best for all. It needs to be a known fact that all of these is part of the consumerism system to keeps human enslaved to their own minds with no way out in actually moving and directing themselves towards a change within themselves and within this world.


So – Derren Brown shows in a very simplistic way what Desteni is saying for more than 5 years now – we are Robotic Machines that are very easily programmable and therefor, we must take responsibility for what we programmed inside ourselves and change the program, in absolute self awareness and honesty. We must deconstruct every inch of our mind and change ourselves for once and for all so that we all can stand together and bring solutions that would result with practical best for all outcome – FOR ALL!!!


Thus, I would suggest to anyone who hold onto any form of belief to stop for a moment and start investigating where the belief came from, when did I start believing in what I believe? Can I cross reference my beliefs? Can my beliefs assist and support in bringing about a world that is best for all? Who benefit from me accepting and allowing my beliefs?


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